I leave tomorrow morning for one last work contract. I thought I was already finished for the season, but a contract suddenly materialized this afternoon. The opportunity is excellent and I can not turn it down. This one contract will completely pay for mine and Jordan's Burning Man trip (minus the tickets that we already own).
I have three ideas for my next challenge. All are equally important in my life. Each is on a deeper level than my previous challenges. These ideas all address certain insecurities of mine. While I am gone, I am going to choose my new challenge. I will start it upon my return.
I feel ready to delve deeper in my spiritual quest. This will help me to truly face myself and help me to make some big life changes. Until now, I have not felt it was the right time. I feel nervous about getting so deep on my public blog. This is essentially an open journal of my thoughts and feelings.
When I decided to start these challenges, I wanted to have someone.... anyone, to answer to. That is why I chose to write about my experiences publicly. I may not be answering to anyone specific, but having readers allows me to feel like I have to stay true to what I write. It keeps me honest. Otherwise, it would be so easy for me to forget about these challenges and why I do them.
At the beginning of this conscious evolution, I vowed to be brutally honest in my writing. Still, the thought of people reading about my deepest insecurities or negative traits, really frightens me. I have to remember that being completely open is a really good trait. It doesn't matter if others disagree or think negatively of me or my life. My learning and my honesty are what counts.
I am preparing to take these challenges to the next level. Fear and excitement mix inside of me. I know I will learn more about myself than I thought possible. Stay tuned.