Today I saw something that made me rage....

Have you ever seen something skinned alive? Have you looked into the eyes of a creature who's outer shell has been stripped away? Have you seen the pain and suffering of something so beautiful and confused that has now been tortured needlessly? I have. I have seen the eyes of a beautiful tiny fox.... glossy with pain and confusion.... after it has been skinned alive. After it's most basic protection has been taken from it for human frivolty. So some fucking rich society slutt can prance around in it's fur and pretend that class is something that comes from 'things'. But,class has nothing to do with 'things'. Class has nothing to do with money. Class has nothing to do with power. It has everything to do with having a concience and conducting yourself like a being on this planet. Not a monster. Without a concience our society has no need to worry about silly things such as 'ethics', 'morality', 'fairness' and 'compassion'. I am so fucking tired of the blindfolds people walk around with over their eyes. Pretending not to notice... or using denial as a self preservation tool so real issues do not have to be discussed. In the entire scheme of things.... skinning a helpless animal alive does not even register on the scale of fucked up shit about our world. That fact scares me. And it should scare every single person out there. Our species is so far from the noble, spiritual, compassionate, worldly and environmentally knowledgeable human beings that we once were that we have become something different all together. We have become self absorbed, clueless, consumption hungry monsters. Open your fucking eyes people. Stop shying away.... you want to have a great happy life? Trust me, in the next 10 years we are definately not headed in the happy direction. Disaster is more the term I would use. It is going to take a lot of work to get this world back where nature intended it to be so start to get involved, and as we are nature also.... well, maybe you should work on yourself a little too. Do something worth wile for a change, that doesn't include getting trashed every second weekend and buying 3 pairs of new shoes tomorrow. I am sorry if I have offended anyone. I am tired of playing nice though. I need real people to help me in this world full of real issues. Let's make a difference. Do everything you can to spread some change and hope. It only takes an angry post like this (or a positive one also) to possibly make someone at least question their day to day life. I have been questioning many things in my life. It is not easy to admit wrong or realize that you need to change, but it is essential to our human survival, both physically and spiritually. It all starts with education. Go to www.freedocumentaries.org

Hit the road Jack.

See ya,
Bon Voyage...
Ta ta!
Ciao.
Get lost.
About time you left my mind.
You are finally gone.
For now and forever,
Isn't that what we used to say?
Funny... I didn't even write that on purpose.
It has taken me this long,
to realize YOU lost out. NOT me.
And I am so very happy THANKS.
It is the dawn of a new age.
One without your face.
One without the memories of you.
The stupid memories...
Filled with my stupid naivety.
And the naivety... just filled with my stupidity.
And the stupidity all summed up in my missing you.
My missing you meant being emotionally unfaithful...
to myself and the ones I have loved since.
The summer before last,
that experience, it just makes me cringe.
And makes me wonder...
What the hell did I expect?
That you were even a sprinkling of the same person?
That I was?
That love lost would become love refound?
At least I finally tried.
And at least I finally learned.
What it is like to feel my skin crawl;
what it is like to truly lose you.
Because the you I remember faded a long time ago.
We were young... we were stupid...
and I was just plain blinded.
Blinded by something amazing.
But something that will never again be.
It is gone....
the love was gone a long time ago.
It just took me this long to finally realize it.
I didn't want to let go, because so long ago,
I let it all define me.
But that is not who I am.
It is not who I have grown to be.
It is not who I have worked so hard to love.
It's ME I love. NOT YOU!
You, the you that you are now... I could never love.
Never again. Bye-bye!
Hit the road Jack.
fUCKING ENOUGH ALREADY.

Big plans.

I've got some big plans for the year to come. Each year has been better than the last. They lie when they say "highschool years are the best years of your life." Who the hell is 'they' anyways. 'They' don't have a clue. My life just keeps getting bigger and better as the years go on. I love my life, and I am just plain excited and happy to be alive. This past year has taught me so many valuble lessons. Many lessons were difficult to learn, but worth the effort. I have been to many places too: both spiritually and literally. I gladly walk into a new era of my life. One filled with even more beauty, fun, happiness and learning.