Thursday, October 04, 2007

Hit the road Jack.

See ya,
Bon Voyage...
Ta ta!
Ciao.
Get lost.
About time you left my mind.
You are finally gone.
For now and forever,
Isn't that what we used to say?
Funny... I didn't even write that on purpose.
It has taken me this long,
to realize YOU lost out. NOT me.
And I am so very happy THANKS.
It is the dawn of a new age.
One without your face.
One without the memories of you.
The stupid memories...
Filled with my stupid naivety.
And the naivety... just filled with my stupidity.
And the stupidity all summed up in my missing you.
My missing you meant being emotionally unfaithful...
to myself and the ones I have loved since.
The summer before last,
that experience, it just makes me cringe.
And makes me wonder...
What the hell did I expect?
That you were even a sprinkling of the same person?
That I was?
That love lost would become love refound?
At least I finally tried.
And at least I finally learned.
What it is like to feel my skin crawl;
what it is like to truly lose you.
Because the you I remember faded a long time ago.
We were young... we were stupid...
and I was just plain blinded.
Blinded by something amazing.
But something that will never again be.
It is gone....
the love was gone a long time ago.
It just took me this long to finally realize it.
I didn't want to let go, because so long ago,
I let it all define me.
But that is not who I am.
It is not who I have grown to be.
It is not who I have worked so hard to love.
It's ME I love. NOT YOU!
You, the you that you are now... I could never love.
Never again. Bye-bye!
Hit the road Jack.
fUCKING ENOUGH ALREADY.

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