Due to the nature of my current job, I am away for long periods of time. I do not enjoy this situation. I love the town I live in. I love the people I have met here in my new home. While I am away, I feel envious of everyone at home when they get together for parties or go to a good show, or ski down the hill on the new fluffy white stuff that seems to fall more abundantly every time I drive back up North.
I will never do a job such as this one again, but sacrifice is to be made if I want to reach my dreams. This is a means to an end. I understand this, and I try to explain this to others. Some understand...... some do not. All that really matters is that I am okay with my decisions, that I feel strong in where I am leading my life. All that matters is that I understand what I am doing. I do.
My sacrifices are necessary for my beliefs and loves in life. I want to be free of money's ownership over me (in the form of debt). I want to open my art studio and make people happy with their own discovery and creation. I want to rent-to-own our silly little house and renovate it to be more sustainable and efficient. I want to grow my own food with a community full of like minded individuals. I want to travel this planet for a year. I want to re-register for Vancouver Film School and create beautiful documentaries that pull at minds and hearts. I can do these things. I have always reached my dreams. I always find a way. I always have found a way. For this winter only.... this is my way to reach for my dreams.
One sacrifice I will be making in the next few weeks is my promise to blog weekly about becoming ambidextrous. The job I leave for on Wednesday is in a camp without regular computer access. I will not be able to write my last two blog entries while I am away. I found a compromise that I feel is sufficient and fair. To make up for my disappearance from the blogging world for a few weeks, I will instead write in my journal about my feelings and experiences twice. When I return home I will transfer those verbal images to this blog.
During that time, I will also decide upon my next challenge. I have some unusual ideas brewing. Thinking up new ideas to teach myself something truly excites me. This ambidexterity challenge has taught me a lot and I feel grateful that I have learned these bits and pieces of valuable knowledge through this experience.
Writing with my left hand has taught me the most. I even seem to express my emotions in my journal in a different way when I use my lefty. Different thoughts come to mind and different writing patterns are released. It is unusual, interesting and exhilarating all at once. I really enjoy this challenge.
This challenge has definitely renewed my excitement for my conscious evolution. This challenge is exciting and also achievable. That combination makes all the difference. My attempts at getting up early (A Morning Rhythm and Try, Try Again) somewhat depleted some of my excitement for challenges. It was just too difficult, and too early on in my learning experience. Achievability and Excitability are key. My interest has come back with a vengeance, and it feels great!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Saturday, January 08, 2011
Learning One Paragraph at a Time
This week of renewed loyalty to my multi-hand challenge, has proven to be a lot of fun.
I now look forward to writing my daily paragraph using my left hand. The process has started to become relaxing rather than painful. Occasionally I have still forgotten my paragraph, but I made up for it each time by writing two paragraphs the next day instead of one. I notice a great difference in my writing from the challenge beginning compared to now. I wonder how tidy my words will look by the thirtieth day of this extended challenge?
This week has helped me to realize that before this challenge, I was already quite multi-handed. My ambidexterity level was higher than I thought. I needed this extension to help me realize that I already had this ability. Since I am now in tune with the use of my left hand, I notice more often when I use it. More often than not, the use feels natural rather than forced. There are only certain tasks that I actively have to remind myself of. My ambidextrous goal may be easier to reach than I originally hypothesized. This challenge has taught me that I may not give myself enough recognition for abilities and talents that I posses. This is a deep lesson that deserves some deep pondering.
Since my last post, I am also more aware of my troubling speech situation. I have been attempting to slow my speech down, in order to enunciate properly. This has also helped me to arrange my sentences together more fluidly. My estimate is that this works about one third of the time ;)
The interest in my Conscious Evolution seems to be very positive. When the conversation was appropriate, I have brought this idea up at several gatherings and parties. I wanted to see what others thought or felt about this concept. Friends, family and people I have just met have all responded with interest. Many people become excited by the idea and suggest future challenges for me. Some people have been inspired to do their own challenges.
I love that I may be inspiring others with these challenges. After all, this idea came about when I was inspired by another. I read a blog written by an artist in Nelson who had decided to take a vow of silence.... just to see if he could. He did not have a specified time period, but for each day of silence, he drew a picture to depict his feelings.
The idea of building mental, spiritual and physical strength through challenges, pulled at my soul. I knew I wanted my self to be a part of my own evolution (I know that sentence seems ridiculously obvious...... but there is a deeper meaning and a big difference between SELF and PERSON). So, I decided to make my own challenges and write about my inner journey.
All of my previous thoughts and interest in the concept of Conscious Evolution came together on the day that I was inspired by another. That stranger's blog is what I needed to launch my own journey. Maybe my blog can do the same for somebody else.
I now look forward to writing my daily paragraph using my left hand. The process has started to become relaxing rather than painful. Occasionally I have still forgotten my paragraph, but I made up for it each time by writing two paragraphs the next day instead of one. I notice a great difference in my writing from the challenge beginning compared to now. I wonder how tidy my words will look by the thirtieth day of this extended challenge?
This week has helped me to realize that before this challenge, I was already quite multi-handed. My ambidexterity level was higher than I thought. I needed this extension to help me realize that I already had this ability. Since I am now in tune with the use of my left hand, I notice more often when I use it. More often than not, the use feels natural rather than forced. There are only certain tasks that I actively have to remind myself of. My ambidextrous goal may be easier to reach than I originally hypothesized. This challenge has taught me that I may not give myself enough recognition for abilities and talents that I posses. This is a deep lesson that deserves some deep pondering.
Since my last post, I am also more aware of my troubling speech situation. I have been attempting to slow my speech down, in order to enunciate properly. This has also helped me to arrange my sentences together more fluidly. My estimate is that this works about one third of the time ;)
The interest in my Conscious Evolution seems to be very positive. When the conversation was appropriate, I have brought this idea up at several gatherings and parties. I wanted to see what others thought or felt about this concept. Friends, family and people I have just met have all responded with interest. Many people become excited by the idea and suggest future challenges for me. Some people have been inspired to do their own challenges.
I love that I may be inspiring others with these challenges. After all, this idea came about when I was inspired by another. I read a blog written by an artist in Nelson who had decided to take a vow of silence.... just to see if he could. He did not have a specified time period, but for each day of silence, he drew a picture to depict his feelings.
The idea of building mental, spiritual and physical strength through challenges, pulled at my soul. I knew I wanted my self to be a part of my own evolution (I know that sentence seems ridiculously obvious...... but there is a deeper meaning and a big difference between SELF and PERSON). So, I decided to make my own challenges and write about my inner journey.
All of my previous thoughts and interest in the concept of Conscious Evolution came together on the day that I was inspired by another. That stranger's blog is what I needed to launch my own journey. Maybe my blog can do the same for somebody else.
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