ILLUSION CONFUSION

Illusion Confusion
A mask with an iron finish
Pull off the mask
It slithers away
A serpant in the Garden of Eden
Layer under layer
Tear each one off
A deja-vu for you
In each costume revealed
Filthy and sinking
Like the one before

City Stars

stars in the city are few and far between
if you are looking above
but on the street where glass has been shattered
stars are in abundance
turn your headlights on
point them towards the disaster
and ouila!
stars are once again in your sight
sometimes you just have to look down rather than up

Letting Go...

A letter to myself:
I am letting go of everything I have held onto in the past..... I am letting go of all the bad. I am letting go. Letting go. Letting go. Goodbye sadness, goodbye pain, goodbye anger. You are gone. I am new and bright. Hello me.... it has been a long journey. I am so glad to have you back on this path. It has been over 11 years since I have seen you last. You still look the same though.... a little older, a little wiser, a little prettier, a little happier but still me. I missed you, but I knew you would find your way back. I have let go of the barriers. It is all uphill from here.
Luv me
always

My shoulders finally feel lighter......

This is my year. Can I say it again?? THIS IS MY YEAR! I can not describe how much happiness I feel. I feel it from the tips of my toes up to my nose. I have made huge progress in my life... in my mind and in my soul this year (and it is only yet February). My shoulder's are beginning to release all burdens. My shoulder's feel lighter. I could fly! Anything is possible. Anything can happen.... I can make anything happen. Life just keeps going up from here.... soon I will be in the clouds, wearing my own halo of good luck.

Random act of poetry

In the night I sleep
I see my dreams
More vivid then when I awake
I see my dreams
Of the dreams I dream
During each monotonous day
The dreams I dream
Come true once again
Each dusk when the moon wakes
When I lay in my bed
My sweet dreams head
And my world's sun re-awakes
Once my eyes close
I reopen them in surprise
And under my dreams disguise
I become the person I said
Each night I sleep
When I lay down my head
I dream of tomorrow once again
Until the dawn calls my name
My sweet dreams remain
More vivid then when I awake
I dream my dreams
of the things I see
And I dream myself away
to the dreams I see
Each night I sleep

One word.... one syllable: Fear

Sharades is a grand game. Especially when mixed with a few glasses of wine! Paul had a potluck at his house a while ago..... we ate, we drank, we played taboo, and we played sharades. What a riot. I of course wanted to go up every chance I got (a bit of an attention hog ;). However.... this is only because I was sourounded by people I know and trust. If all of them were strangers, it would be another story.

I am considering trying out for a few plays. It is something I have always wanted to do..... it is just the fear of the unknown that is sofar holding me back. But this year; I am working to eliminate that fear, or at least minimize it to a miniscule minority. The fear I have learned is my enemy.... not my friend. It is there to keep me safe, but safe just isn't what life is all about. So wish me luck.... I think all of you will notice a big change in me and my life within the next year to come!

Luv You All,
Kim

Let the world slow down

Last weekend Simon and I had planned to go to Jasper to snowboard. At the last minute I had to cancel the trip due to a work meeting. Blah! Instead however... we got up early, while it was still dark, drove to Canmore..... parked and watched the sunrise. Watching the clouds float across the sky changing into every shape under the sun; while the sky turned cotton candy pink.... was in the very least amazing. It was such a reinforcement of the feeling I have had lately, that the world just needs to slow down sometimes. It is amazing what you will see when you are not focussed on work, a computer screen, a t.v. screen or driving from destination to destination. Take a break.... and live life. Honestly....... it is beautiful.

Bumpy Roads

Bumpy roads. That comes to mind at the moment..... it seems like life is full of country roads, scattered with big rocks and potholes. And sometimes a fallen tree decides to lay right on your path, separating you from the other side. Life can be frustrating.... and make you question what you think is right. But I guess that is what this winding path is all about.

I smell change (it smells like strawberries)

Change is in the air. I smell it's sweetly seductive scent everywhere I go.... and I am drawn to it. Simply put: my life needs an overhaul in almost every aspect possible. It has needed it for a while, but I was not ready. But I am finally at that point in my life where this overhaul can be carried out; and my determination is the key. My toes are tingling to test the water.... all I have to do is take that first step. But that first step is what troubles me. FEAR. FEAR of something new. FEAR of something unfamiliar. FEAR of stepping out of my comfort zone and into the unknown. FEAR is what has controlled me for the last 23 years. But I have a small chisel of knowledge that I am gathering against the fear every day. Every piece of knowledge replaces a little peice of fear. And everyday I am fighting the battle to be the person I want to be. My life is changing.... for the good.

I swallowed the fly on the wall

You know how sometimes you are walking along, just minding your own business..... and suddenly a realization hits your throat like a glob of peanut butter. That little thing that had been on your mind for, oh.. the last few days, few months, few years even. And suddenly without prior warning; you now just get IT. Pull out the party horns.... because YOU my friend have just swallowed an insight. I have been swallowing a lot of these sneaky little flies lately.... and digesting the lessons. The old lady didn't die after all.... the song was wrong! Who knew? I guess maybe being the fly on the wall, is looking in on your own self instead of someone else. Hmmm....
In other news: going to Vancouver tomorrow, Van tomorrow, Van tomorrow!