A cliche

Well... at the risk of acting out a cliche.... I have to say that: THINGS TRULY DO HAPPEN FOR A REASON. Simon and I were never meant to be together forever. I know this now that my head is clear of confusion and my heart is free of everyday heartbreak. We were meant to teach each other a lesson.... so far since our parting, I have learned an enormous amount. I have so much more energy. More energy than I have had in over a year (keep in mind... energy is something I come by easily). I also feel so much more grounded in my beliefs. I know what I want, who I want, where I want, why I want, when I want and almost everything surrounding the how. At least I think I do ;) I just feel so happy. So completely happy. So completely me. Relationships are difficult... but they are even more difficult with someone unwilling to budge in any way whatsoever. I felt like I was a dentist prying a rotten tooth every time I tried to have an in depth conversation with Simon. I couldn't talk to him about my inner most feelings, thoughts and beliefs. Of course we lost the connection.... how could we not lose the connection? How did we stay together for so damn long? I remember the first love that I ever had... he and I could talk for hours; about anything. Is it any wonder that I felt so connected with him? We were young, yes... but the connection was truly there. I want to be able to talk for hours with the next person I love. I want to feel that they are interested in what I have to say... I want to make love to the person who has listened to me and to who I have listened to. I want to make love to someone who has seen inside of me. That is what I want. I will not settle. I know there is someone out there that I can talk with... that I can understand... who understands me. I don't want to jump into anything.... but if the right person comes along, I am not going to punish myself for my mistakes or mis-steps in my last relationship. Relationships are a learning curve too. I have learned many lessons..... the only real mistakes are the mistakes that are not corrected the first time.