Said too fast

I said okay, when you said you wanted to be friends... despite the fear I felt. I went against my gut reaction to just cut you out of my life. I believed you would stay my friend. I believed you when you said you did not want to lose me completely. So I said okay. Look where that has got us. Are we friends? No. Did we need time to heal first? Yes. I wish you would stick to your word.... but that was always something I did not like about you. One thing that we argued about frequently. You could never hold a promise and fulfill it. I should have known. Silly me. Goodbye... I love you. I love you... goodbye. Those are quite possibly the most difficult words I have ever had to say. I never thought it would be said to you, but then again.... before I met you... I never thought I could love again.